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Building Harmony ~ Tarot for 7 November 2016

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So many of my tarot readings these days contain cards from the Major Arcana, sometimes dominating the reading. The 3 of Cups begins this three-card spread with both The Star and The Hermit giving a dominant influence. 11 represents the numerology of the spread suggesting illumination is at hand. Tomorrow brings what may be the most important Presidential election of our lives. A qualified woman versus every woman’s nightmare. Easy choice to make.

Success, abundance, balance, and celebration are illustrated in the 3 of Cups, a suit of Elemental Water. Three friends sit together in celebration, in loving harmony, cups full in front of them. The Hermit is Source personified, the quiet counsel on the hill, illuminating our way. The cloaked priest stands holding a staff in one hand, the light of Source Presence represented by the glowing Merkaba within a lantern held with the other. Also representing Hecate, the Goddess in her Crone aspect, The Hermit represents Divine Wisdom within, giving light to creation. The Hermit withdraws from the world, aligning with Source Presence, in observation and reflection.

The cards from the Major Arcana (NEVER calling them the T word ever again..ever) indicate archetypal or foundational influences or energies. I see them more specifically as qualities depicting the attributes our Source Presence while in physical form. The Star ends the spread kneeling with one foot in the water and one knee on land, her pouring of water representing our emotional balance in form.

We are energetic beings, with emotion at our essence. If that emotion is out of balance, then we judge harshly the world around us, resulting in the daily hate we’re seeing during this election. We fool ourselves into believing that we intellectually process what we see and experience, but in truth, we do that from an emotional state. Mind can tell us all sorts of things that we want to hear, but it’s our emotional resonance, when in balance, that tells us the truth. In balance, our emotional presence brings us together. When not in balance, judgment and hate rule the day.

We wish upon a star, hoping our dreams will be fulfilled when The Star presents in a reading. The Star is the Blessed Conduit between physical and nonphysical presence, She is hope and inspiration, and her presence and vision tells us that bright days are ahead. We know from the 3 of Cups that a celebration is in store, with harmony and love as its focus. Our way is illuminated by our alignment. We know what’s necessary to bring purposed fulfillment to our lives.

The Goddess is rising within us all. Patriarchy..misogyny..neither has a place in our world anymore, replaced by loving Goddess Presence. Harmony is our way forward, with division a thing of the past. This election gives us a chance to build a harmonious future for all of us.

One more day, my sisters and more day.

Blessed Be

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Regaining Inner Balance ~ Tarot for 5 Nov 2016

Regaining Inner Balance

I’d like to believe that we’ll all regain our inner balance after Tuesday, that we’d put country and family over politics, but I just don’t know. The vitriol will no doubt continue because of momentum it’s gained brought on by the biggest case of diarrhea of the mouth ever to run for President. A line has been crossed and it may be difficult for some to regain a more balanced focus. I tried to do this reading with my Morgan Greer deck, but I just couldn’t get into the flow of it all. One time I drew male Court cards which gave the impression of more nastiness with the outside cards, a Knight and a King, facing each other. Maybe the conversation was friendly. Maybe.

So I gave up on that deck, having had enough of male testosterone for a while, and took out my Thoth deck. It’s my favorite but it’s different from most decks, although some of them are so individual and interesting, the non-traditional decks have almost become the norm. Everyone sees tarot from their own unique perspective, so it’s no wonder there are so many decks to choose from. I have a bunch, and most speak to me, but a few don’t and they sit in my tarot drawer, waiting to connect at some point in the future.

Two cards from the Major Arcana (still not using the T word), The Hierophant and The Priestess, along with the 5 of Wands comprise today’s tarot spread. Finding inner balance amid the strife we feel appears to be the theme of the reading. The numerology consists of two 5’s and a 2 combining to 12 and reducing to 3. Three is interesting in that it is the result of 1 plus 2, and in tarot, that represents combined energies of the Magus and the Priestess. From there, the Empress emerges from their union as card 3 of the Major Arcana. And it’s she who creates the Emperor. The presence of the Priestess in this reading reinforces its inner aspect. Three is catalytic, the alchemy of creation in play, the Empress as the creative presence giving birth to her experiences.

Beginning with the 5 of Wands, Crowley considers this card to be filled with strife, competition, and cruelty. I prefer a less gloomy interpretation and see it as balance that’s off. Five can indicate change and we’re all feeling that these days. A single wand stands before four others in a fiery balance, as if waiting for something to happen. Change is afoot and although we’re ready, we haven’t yet come to grips with it. The five also indicates the pentagram, or Spirit controlling matter, so the five tells us that our focus should be on our alignment with Source Presence.

Moving to The Hierophant, another 5 card, the Holy Guardian Angel sits within the Merkaba, with a key in his right hand two fingers of his left pointing downward and to the left. Beasts and creatures surround him, a star on his chest. The Hierophant, the enlightened teacher, has mastered the three worlds of structure, tradition, and knowledge. He embodies divine wisdom and reflects inner guidance.

Finally we come to the Priestess, the High Priestess in other decks. She sits on her throne, her arms outstretched in supplication to the Moon. She is the counterpart to the Magus, the Triple Goddess personified, the Feminine Divine possessing intuition, revelation, and inner wisdom. She is the gateway to the unconscious Self. She stands in the in between, embracing change with flowing grace and beauty, her eyes closed, relying only on her inner vision.

The 5 of Cups is telling us that we need only look within to know the way forward. We know a con when we see one. We’re not fooled by this man.

The emotional strife we’re experiencing is instigated by someone who has none of our best interests at heart. It’s time to stop listening to him.

His words, his lies, instigate only hate and terror. It’s time to stop listening to him.

He cannot make our country great again, because it never stopped being great in the first place. It’s time to stop listening to him.

It’s time now to go within, to seek calm from the noise and vitriol caused by someone who simply cannot control what comes out of his mouth. He will never make anything better because he has no solutions. And on Tuesday, we will make our voices heard. We will send the message that he doesn’t speak for us. He doesn’t speak for women or children or anyone with any sense at all. He doesn’t speak for men who can think beyond themselves, and has turned many in his own party to the opposing side. They see him for who he is in all his ugliness.

There are no words that can adequately describe the horror of this man, this candidate for President of our great country. Yes, we have problems. All countries do. But we don’t solve any of them by electing this travesty. Some empaths just feel things. Others can see the past and future as well. I tend to do all of it. And I can tell you that the channel I see with this guy is dark and terrifying. Typically I can see various probabilities or outcomes, but with this guy, there’s only one.

Do we want a future that circles the drain or one that has hope? Aren’t we sick of all the obstruction that’s been going on for the last eight years? Isn’t it time to move past all of this and into better days? We have a responsibility to do what’s right for our children, if not for ourselves. Do we vote for a woman who has spent her life helping others or do we vote for a guy who has ever only helped himself?

Three more days, my friends, three more days. It’s time to stop listening to his words and believe what you already know. Regain your inner balance. Catalyze your intention.

And then vote.

Blessed Be

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The Effects Of Passive Aggression

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I’ve really come to the conclusion that passive aggression is rampant amongst humans. It can take many forms, sometimes focusing upon the passive side and sometimes the aggressive. Passive aggression is not easily dealt with, by anyone. It tends to be self-reinforcing so it’s difficult for those who behave this way to experience life any other way even when they see how counterproductive their choices are.

Enter the empath. We notice energies surrounding us. They’re interesting. When we experience energy that’s chaotic, it’s even more interesting so we feel in and then try to make sense of it. And that’s a mistake. It may sound unfeeling, but if an empath doesn’t stay out of a passive aggressive person’s energy, they’ll be sucked in forever.

Passive aggression is a learned strategy or response, sometimes born from abuse or observation. I knew a passive aggressive woman once whose focus was passive and could control any room she was in. All she had to do was look worried and it was all over. She had everyone doing her bidding from that point forward. A passive aggressive person is powerful, particularly in their helplessness. And for an empath, it’s hard to stay aligned if immersed in that energy.

I’ve noticed a few articles of late that suggest that women are having a difficult time with the election. All this talk of sexual assault and rape culture is creating emotional hell for many women. Listening to the male candidate is more than many of us can bear as he embodies the aggressive side of passive aggression, his kind of chaotic aggression particularly devastating to experience by abuse survivors of any kind. His continual disrespect towards anyone who disagrees with him, his targeted tirades at rallies and on social media, all contribute to an uneasy feeling at least, panic attacks and abuse reactions at most.

As an abuse survivor and an empath, I potentially experience a double dose of this. It’s exhausting to feel the rage at the rallies and to hear his messianic tone. I watched as he loomed large behind Hillary at the debate, as I thought, okay..I see you..I see what you’re doing. Because here’s the only thing we need to remember. Passive aggressive people know and understand what they’re doing. It’s all by design, whether it’s their behavior or their subsequent denial of that behavior, in an effort to get what they want. They’re capable of manipulating every outcome. So it makes no sense whatsoever to engage with them. In fact, we should become militant about not doing so.

Our outrage should drive our militancy as we take back our power from people whose sole focus is on themselves. The guy running for President doesn’t deserve our pain, our panic, our terror. He deserves nothing, not our focus, not our attenti0n, not our emotion, and certainly not our vote. Our peace of mind is more important than something he’s either said or tweeted.

Whether one is a survivor or an empath, it’s easy to become drawn in by someone like this. His ability to stir up hatred in the room is terrifying to watch, so it’s probably best avoided. Remember, it’s not about them. It’s all about preserving your sanity.

All we are is energetic vibration. Passive aggressive people aren’t aligned to their Source Presence when they behave this way, their lack of alignment the uncomfortable vibration felt by others. They experience life on the margins rarely moving to a still point or center. So it’s hard to get them to focus and see the effects of their behavior, let alone consider giving it up for a better engagement with others. Staying in our own energetic lane keeps us out that nasty energy and far happier in the long run.

We can’t fix the guy running for President. No one can. Not even him. So do whatever it takes in the final days of this election to stay aligned and at peace.

He’s not worth our collective misery. We all deserve more than this guy. Our dignity alone is worth more than that guy. Five more days…

Blessed Be

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What Women Remember

Women know what it is to experience oppression. And although it sometimes seems as if younger women don’t fully grasp some of what older women have experienced, they’ve lived with their own share of this problem just the same. So this isn’t going to be a discussion of who understands what.

We vote by mail here in Oregon. It’s great. Our ballots arrive in the mailbox and we vote in our living rooms. Or wherever. Then we mail them back. It works brilliantly. I filled out my ballot earlier today and I’ve been thinking about what a momentous election this is. It’s not that electing a woman as our President is going to instantly erase all of the sexism and misogyny women have experienced throughout the years, but that we have a chance to chart a new course. Women have felt the effects of the current course long enough, thank you very much.

Some memories..

I remember when my parents were divorced in 1974, my mother had to establish credit in her name which would have been impossible only a few years earlier. I remember my father recommending that I become a teacher so that I would be home with my children in the afternoon and summers. And I remember in the early 80’s when my mother sent me a check for my birthday written out to Mrs. Jerry Erickson. I nearly sent it back to her. I called her to ask her what she was thinking. She couldn’t believe I felt the way I did. I explained to her that I didn’t exactly lose my identity when I married my husband even though I chose to take his last name. Even that was a newer choice women were making then, taking our husband’s last name or keeping our own, as opposed to hyphenating.

When I began training in martial arts, I co-owned our karate school with my husband who was also my instructor. Training daily, I was promoted to Black Belt three years after beginning my training. It wasn’t easy. I worked diligently. But even female students from other schools made disrespectful comments because after all, I was the wife. My husband was a task master. He didn’t give away rank. In our school, rank was earned. But truth didn’t matter.

I co-owned a motorcycle shop with my husband for fourteen years, closing that business in 2013. Even though I was seriously ill for over eleven years of that business, my husband and I spent the first six years putting in ninety-eight hour work weeks. Yes, that’s not a typo. We were there seven days per week from early in the morning until late at night. We were the sole employees and we had to compete with the dealership in town.

I learned how to tune fuel injection motorcycles on a dyno, thoroughly annoying some of the male customers we had. One guy, who actually was my neighbor at the time, would come in the shop and announce to anyone who was there that my husband did a great job tuning his bike, knowing that it was me who did the tune. I could also put together engine jobs and discuss the rationale behind whatever I was suggesting to men who had no idea what I was talking about.

It was odd because so much of the engine information I would share with customers came from some of the top engine builders in that industry. I would call them and ask all sorts of questions and before I knew it I would be furiously taking notes as they educated me. None of them condescended the way some of my male customers did. Each one of these top guys in their industry treated me with respect. One really well-known guy shared with me his secret for carburetor tuning. And yes, I shared it with my husband. But the point was there were only a handful of guys who could have one of these conversations with me. Most of them had no idea what I was talking about and viewed me with complete suspicion, some with complete contempt. The guys who would sit and talk with me, however, were awesome.

Women see the world in a unique way..

I hesitate to say that I know what Hillary is going through because I don’t think there’s a woman alive who has experienced the level of misogyny that she has experienced. But in a sense, each woman does know what she’s experienced because we’ve all been there in one capacity or another. It’s the lack of trust that we deal with. We can’t be the boss because our children might need us. We’re unreliable and emotionally unstable because we menstruate. We have opinions that differ from our male counterparts so we’re definitely not to be trusted. And Goddess help us if we tune some guy’s motorcycle. Or put together an engine job for him. I was the woman who did both.

But we also might have the answers. Women see the world in a unique way. We have the survival of the species within us and that awareness often influences the decisions we make. So we’ll defend the family when necessary. But we’re savvy about it. Maybe our response amounts to a nudge, or a suggestion, when appropriate. But make no mistake about it. If our family is threatened, we act. And we do so in a decisive manner.

Not all women are Black Belts, but all women think like them. Trust me on this. We’ve had no choice in the matter. And we’re not going to stop until patriarchy is relegated to the dustbin of history. Because as Hillary’s opponent has suggested, we’re nasty like that.

In two weeks our country is likely electing our first female President. We made history in 2008 and 2012 by electing and then reelecting Barack Obama as our President. As amazing as that surely was, what we’re about to do has been a long time coming. Conservatives saw her coming back in the early nineties when they began their campaign to discredit her. But she worked for all of us in spite of them, becoming a Senator and then Secretary of State. And now, Hillary Clinton is poised to become the next President of the United States.

Chris Matthews said on Hardball one day that this is a really big deal for women of a certain age. He’s right. It is. For all of us who have experienced oppression in any form, electing a woman represents a goal that has taken far too long to achieve. And now, here we are, that long awaited goal in sight.

Blessings to all!


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Patriarchy Isn’t Going Away Quietly

I watched part of the Commander-in-Chief forum last night, turning it off after Secretary Clinton was finished. I couldn’t watch the poor excuse for an interviewer give the next guy the pass he didn’t seem interested in giving Hillary. Even with all of her qualifications, he couldn’t be respectful enough to let her finish a thought. But then that’s how it is with powerful women. There are still men who apparently are so intimidated that they find any way that they can to make us look less than we are. Those watching last night witnessed just such a man. Well, two of them.

We’ve all lived under patriarchy for so long that it doesn’t occur to some that there can be anything else. But it’s never felt right to treat women as less than when we’ve never been anything like that. We’ve fought in wars, we take care of our families, we run companies, but we’re somehow less than our male counterparts. And now some of the more loony ones are fixated on a cough that Secretary Clinton had. A cough. President Bush choked on a pretzel and while there were jokes made about it, most people were just concerned that he was okay. These other people sound like complete nutjobs.

The other candidate has no ideas other than those which will derail our country further. Secretary Clinton, on the other hand, has all sorts of plans to make our country better, but media outlets are more interested in covering the crazy guy than listening to what she has to say. It’s probably why she doesn’t talk to them much. She’d rather talk to voters. Oh, the horror of it all.

She doesn’t smile; she doesn’t look presidential. Give me a break. This woman looks more presidential than even her husband did. Besides, it’s about governing, not about her own celebrity. Next they’ll be saying she’s not woman enough for the job. But then maybe that’s what the smile comments are about.

When we make it about the visual, we lose substance. An election is not a television show, irrespective of the fact that one of the candidates is akin to a game show host. I want to know how a candidate is going to govern and if he or she understands what people in our country deal with on a daily basis, regardless of who they are. I want to know that he or she understands the rest of world and our place in it. I want to know that he or she has a firm grasp on the issues we all face in this world and that wisdom will prevail over impulsive reaction.

When my parents were divorced, I remember my mom was up for a promotion to department head at the grocery store where she worked. I was in college and we talked about the fact that she might be able to be an Assistant Store Manager, but she would never be in charge of the whole place. That was a job reserved for men because they had families to take care of. My mother was now a single parent with a deaf son and a daughter in college, but apparently a man’s responsibilities were greater than my mother’s.

It was bullshit then and it’s bullshit now. But that’s how the world was in the 70’s. For all the work feminism was doing, we hadn’t come very far, and listening to the crap that comes from men who should know better about this election, it tells me that we have so much more work to do. But it’s as disgusting now as it was then.

People wonder why so many older women support Hillary. Well, it’s because we’ve experienced patriarchy in all its ugliness. It’s not because she’s a woman, but because she’s qualified. Because if she wasn’t, none of us would be supporting her.

Here’s the thing. Women are intelligent, responsible people. We work hard, and we want an equal place at the table. And we shouldn’t have to ask for it or point it out. We THINK. We REASON. And we VOTE. And in November each one of us will make the best decision we can when we cast our vote.

But is it time for a woman in the Oval Office? Yes. And the fussy men out there who can’t seem to stop sticking both feet in their mouths need to sit down, shut up, and learn a thing or two.

Women aren’t the enemy. We just want to be treated with respect and dignity. And we want to be paid the same as our male counterparts. We don’t want to be defined by whether or not we smile enough. And just so men know, saying stuff like this makes you look so pathetic and small. Women are tired of being judged, period. Because it’s only there to keep women in a place defined by men who want control instead of fairness, preserving patriarchy instead of a more balanced engagement.

Any time change happens, those that want to preserve the status quo will spend their efforts on derailing that change. But a tipping point has been reached, and patriarchy is giving way to a more balanced, reasoned approach to how we relate to each other. We have to start somewhere. Maybe we begin by electing Hillary Clinton our first woman President.

A note about the picture at the top of the white cosmos. This little plant is a volunteer, began with one flower, and has been growing in my driveway all summer. Its beauty and tenacity speaks to the strength of a woman who stands in her own power in spite of any obstacles in her path. As women, like this flower, we’ve persevered in our becoming. And there’s no stopping us now.

Blessed Be

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The Feminine Influence


We have a female Presidential candidate. Let that sink in for a moment, will you? She’s strong and steady and will lead with a full heart and an intelligent mind. But then that’s Hillary. I think it’s telling when people suggest that women will vote for her because she’s a woman. Please. That’s ridiculous. Women are far more intelligent than that. We actually consider what candidates have to say. We ask questions. We think about the answers we’re given. If we’re mothers, we consider the impact each candidate will have on our families.

Will the next President care about our black sons who are killed on a daily basis? Will the next President assure equal pay for equal work? Will the next President view our crumbling infrastructure as an opportunity for job development? Will the next President stand strong on racism along with the other isms that plague our country and the world at large? Will the next President work for universal health care, expanding on the Affordable Care Act? Will the next President reform our educational system and make college either free or affordable for families struggling to get by?

I had two sons in college at the same time. Somehow, according to our FAFSA applications, my husband and I were wealthy enough to pay for both boys in college. Right. All they qualified for were loans. But we didn’t complain. We did the best we could and both were graduated and are doing well in their lives. But it was insulting to see that the government was blind to the realities of family life. Do we eat, or do we send our boys to college? It really came down to that in the end. But we did it and they’re awesome.

The crazy orange haired guy is frightening enough, but the folks who support him completely blow me away. I’m all for respecting individual differences, but is anything this guy says or does beyond the pale? The military doesn’t seem to want him as their commander in chief. Besides, according to him, he knows more than they do anyway. The Presidents Bush don’t seem to want to endorse him and neither attended that sad excuse for a convention. Ours, on the other hand, was pure magick.

I didn’t appreciate the Oregon delegation behaving as they did, individual differences aside. Once the vote has been taken, it is what it is. If it’s not your candidate, you have the grace to shut the hell up, and if you can’t get behind the elected candidate, you at least have some respect for the process and you don’t disrupt the convention. It’s unseemly. Bernie fought hard and has brought real change to the Democratic Platform and when Hillary takes office next January, we’ll see that change reflected in her agenda.

But the Bernie or bust people are only shooting us all in the proverbial feet by their antics. Because that’s what they are. Antics. I can’t take any of them seriously which is sad given that I supported Bernie, gave money to his campaign, and came out as a Democratic Socialist. But when the drama started among his supporters, I couldn’t support him anymore. And I now believe that waiting until just before the convention to endorse Hillary caused more drama than it prevented. It’s not easy to lose, particularly when you’ve begun a movement, but lose he did and now we must do everything in our power to stop the crazy guy from winning.

Maybe it’s the feminine influence at work, but I believe in treating others with respect and dignity. I hear none of that from the crazy guy. From Hillary, on the other hand, she embodies and extends both to all. The racist rhetoric, the focus on guns no matter how much it compromises our safety, the single-minded notion that only he can save the country – all of this is not what we need to rise up and become the compassionate country I know that we are.

I believe in unity of purpose and that we’re all in truth one family, and the crazy guy’s divisiveness will lose in the end. I don’t understand how we became so overtly us versus them in this country. How we continually see otherness instead of family. But some have truly lost their way and prefer patriarchy and hate to reason, love and balance.

The pendulum has swung so far to the masculine or projective side of things that a return to the feminine influence is necessary to bring back balance. And although balance will be achieved irrespective of the upcoming election’s outcome, a woman at the helm may usher in a new era for our country. Someone who listens and isn’t afraid to speak her mind and say the things so many have been afraid to say.

It’s a return to the Divine Feminine in each of us, both men and women, something that’s been sorely needed for so long. Compassion, love, trust, hard work, integrity, honesty, all qualities possessed by our next Madame President, and they’re qualities that will see our country through to more successful times.

The rose quartz rune at the top is Inguz or seed. It represents creation, symmetry, cosmic law, and ideas. What seeds will we sow..what will we nurture or create anew today?

Choose wisely for it matters that much.

~Blessings to all!


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Dear Hillary: We HAVE Research..We NEED Legalization

You know, I really love you. I really do. And I’ll vote for you if you’re the nominee. But girlfriend, we really need to talk. You said on Thursday that you support state efforts at legalization but that more research needs to be done before any legalization federally happens. But with all due respect, my sister, you couldn’t be more wrong.

The research is out there. Federal prohibition prevents states from moving forward on legalization. They use it as an excuse to defend the lie we’ve all lived under for the last 70 some years. People have and continue to serve time in prison for that lie. Does truth even matter to any of you who hold the power over the rest of us? Does it? Because from my perspective it does not.

When I became a cannabis patient in 2010, I was 52 years old and suffering from rheumatoid arthritis. When it exploded on the scene, it did so at an extreme level and stayed that way for thirteen years. I yearned for moderate RA. I never saw it. All the drugs the doctors prescribed did nothing but keep me in that place. Within three months of concentrated cannabis preparations, I was in remission. I began discontinuing my prescribed medicines in a responsible way and it’s taken until last September to finally be free of all of them.

I delayed stopping the Humira because I was worried about a return of symptoms. But when the Department of Defense decided to force me to use their mail-order pharmacy for my Humira, I refused. My husband is a disabled veteran and I have Tricare. When I don’t participate in their intrusive specialty pharmacy care program where I have to endure endless questions from nameless nurses who call me monthly to question me about my care, they don’t send my Humira on time. I’m supposed to inject every other week. If I don’t do their bidding, then I will NOT receive it in time for my injection. The last time I ordered it, it was over a week late. This is unacceptable, so when I got the letter informing me of the change I said no more. I informed my doctor and she agreed to monitor my progress. I’m a herbalist, so I supplement now with herbal formulas I prepare along with cannabis. It’s been over six months and I’ve had no return of symptoms. So, fingers crossed.

The research on the efficacy and safety of cannabis is in. In case you didn’t know, it’s been done extensively in Israel and other places in the world, as well as in kitchens across this country. Patients aren’t simply old hippies smoking pot. We’re everyone and we’re tired of lawmakers who don’t listen to the simple truth.

We all have an endocannabinoid system in our bodies. And if I’m any kind of an example, then it’s clear that we need cannabinoids for our bodies to properly function. Using the plant raw doesn’t result in any psychoactive effect, and is the best method, in my opinion, to heal using cannabis. But other methods are just as useful and need to be available to everyone.

Federal prohibition makes it more difficult for cannabis businesses to open because the banking and tax structure isn’t there for them to function in the same way as other businesses do and that’s a problem. The DEA isn’t known for listening to Presidents who tell them to back off of states where legalization in some form is in effect. In other words, patients still fear arrest. And for what? Laws based on lies?

Greed has caused all of this. Industrial hemp production was problematic for those corporate giants at the time who wanted their crop to be at the forefront. So hemp, and cannabis along with it, was made illegal. Cannabis was used extensively in medicine, but suddenly it wasn’t safe? All because someone else wanted to make a buck? They used racism and patriarchy to achieve their purpose and the country has suffered ever since.

So, you do none of us any favors when you say that more research is needed. Those of us whose lives have been saved with cannabis aren’t listening anymore. Instead, we’re talking, screaming if necessary, so that those in power will hear us.

Cannabis is safe. Cannabis is necessary. The lie has cost us everything. Please listen to our stories. They’re not just anecdotal; many come with X-rays and medical reports showing our progress and our healing. We’re depending on the progressive voices to stand with us and tell lawmakers that enough is enough. We want the right to heal our bodies with something that doesn’t cause additional problems which pharmaceuticals typically do.

We want off that roller coaster, that treadmill because we never seem to heal with it. Glen Frey is a more recent and shocking example of someone who died from rheumatoid arthritis. We think it can’t happen because it’s arthritis but it can. When I heard the news of his passing and why I couldn’t speak. I came that close to the same outcome. And in all this time, none of the doctors I had over those years ever asked me how I healed without them. None of them.

Hillary, I’m 58 now and in the best health of my life. I walk between five and nine miles daily, when before it was all I could do to walk from my chair to the bathroom. I used a cane for most of it, something I haven’t done in six years. And I have cannabis to thank for it. I even self-published a book on Kindle last January called Confessions of a Back Porch Herbalist, telling the story of how I healed. You can even read it for free with Kindle Unlimited. It’s not long and the cannabis part is at the beginning.

But whatever you do, please stop saying we need more research. We don’t. We need lawmakers who are willing to stand up for the truth and to stand with us. Women in particular need to stand together against the patriarchy that has caused us so much grief. Speaking the truth on cannabis is the right thing to do. You have that voice. You ARE that voice.


Jan Erickson

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New Moon Musings..It’s Not That Complicated

Take the riskI love both Hillary and Bernie. I’ve contributed to both. I’ll vote for whoever wins the nomination. What I don’t like is the vitriol between progressives. Now there’s a problem between older and younger feminists. Apparently some of us, yes I’m one of the olds, have indicated to our younger counterparts that somehow they’re foolish if they vote for Bernie. Oh for pity’s sake, no they’re not. I’m a Democratic Socialist who has no problem voting for either candidate, but I’ll vote for Hillary when our primary comes. I’m not doing it because she’s a woman. I’m voting for her because I think she has a better grasp of the issues. I fully support Bernie’s progressive agenda, and I would love to see a Clinton/Sanders ticket.

I understand the need for a truly progressive agenda. The election of President Obama firmly planted that seed. I would dearly love to see a more socialist consciousness awaken amongst us. And maybe we’re ready for that now. If he wins the nomination, Bernie will have my full support. But then I’m one of the olds, so my socialist views are tempered by a little pragmatism, which I’m sure some would call stodginess and a lack of vision.

I read a response to Gloria Steinem’s comments on Bill Maher’s show the other night about younger women voting for Bernie. I guess I didn’t hear what she said even though I was watching the show, being one of the olds can be challenging. I can understand why women might be upset with her comments, but for the author to suggest that older feminists who disagree with them don’t have their backs is a stretch. Maybe some just disagree. We can do that. Our history is a little different and that affects our perspective. And although many of us might take issue with Ms. Steinem’s viewpoint, she shouldn’t be dismissed for her beliefs, even if poorly expressed. It’s a throw the baby out with the bathwater approach that seems unnecessary.

Now it’s not to say that the author doesn’t make some really fair points. In fact, it seems like the author is suggesting that the current mindset of younger women is the effect of all the hard work feminists have put in over the years. And that’s an interesting perspective and one that in some ways I agree with. My kids are in their 30’s and they do see the world differently. They’re more willing to stay out of drama than some of the more ancient among us. So there’s that.

When I talk to younger people it seems as if some historical perspective is missing from their awareness. But then it also seems like there is a willingness to let go of the system, to continue on without it, or perhaps in spite of it. And maybe that courage, that willingness to look beyond what is, to consider the possibility of, is the end result of all the work we did.

Look, everyone has their opinions. We can’t be so sensitive to suggest that anyone who doesn’t vote for a woman is a traitor to women any more than we should suggest that older women don’t have younger women’s backs if said olds disagree with the political choices of said youngs. Surely there are bigger fish to fry here, and the last thing we need to be is enemies.

I think we do a disservice to the whole process by categorizing everyone into older/younger or progressive/not progressive enough. I mean, where does it end? I don’t like this notion that we should vote for a woman for the sake of having a woman president and I would never do so. But Hillary isn’t just any woman. She’s actually qualified. Now, folks may take issue with one thing or another, but they can’t really argue with her experience. Well, they can, and they will, but it makes no sense to me when they do. I’m never sure if the point they’re making is their own or someone else’s.

The trick to respecting the viewpoints of others is to not get upset when it’s something we don’t want to hear. It doesn’t have to result in feelings of abandonment by one party or the other. The other trick is for those expressing said viewpoints to consider choosing less provocative or judgy words. Because whenever we get into an either/or perspective, we lose sight of the bigger picture. For me, that bigger picture leads to voting for Hillary. For others, it means voting for Bernie. I completely understand and support their choice. I just think there’s room for them to understand and support mine.

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Do ANY Candidates Understand Cannabis?

Candidates and Cannabis

When Presidential candidates speak, I barely listen anymore, even if I like the person. I had such hopes for our current President. I voted for him twice, and I thought that he would find a way to reschedule cannabis, but he hasn’t as of yet. Hillary supports rescheduling cannabis so that it can be researched. Evidently she doesn’t realize that this has already happened in other countries and in kitchens across the United States. Bernie seems interested in moving forward on some form of decriminalization, but I never hear actual truth from any of the candidates.

Candidates need to understand that cannabis is safe. A profit motive made it illegal. In other words, money talked and people went to jail for possessing a plant that had been a source of healing for thousands of years. The discussion always begins after that point, when attitudes changed and so-called medical science went off the rails. But then cannabis is an herb, something physicians don’t necessarily learn much about unless they take the initiative to do so. And since it’s illegal federally, having anything to do with it risks their DEA license. I get it, I really do. But with states such as mine legalizing recreationally, our political conversation MUST change to include the truth about cannabis.

Candidates..Listen to Veterans

An article that the candidates should take notice of appeared in today’s Washington Post showing veterans dumping their medication bottles in front of the White House in protest over medical cannabis access. It’s Veteran’s Day. With all the funding problems the Veteran’s Administration has, supporting medicinal cannabis use by veterans would go along way to relieving the pain and suffering experienced by many. My husband’s VA doctor won’t put hemp hearts in his morning smoothie because he’s afraid he’ll test positive for cannabis and lose his job. He won’t, but evidently it’s not about the truth.

The candidates need to know that for every step forward, it feels like we take a dozen steps back when we have to explain the simplest of concepts to people. I’m a 58 year old rheumatoid arthritis sufferer, not a drug addict. Cannabis is the only thing that has given me relief. Remission simply wasn’t possible with the numerous drugs I was taking. It only happened with cannabis. I know countless people who have healed with cannabis. Some wouldn’t be alive now without it. As ill as I was, I’m in that category. So, this is an emotional issue for all of us.

Patients need the candidates to sit with them and listen. Really listen. Hear our stories. Hear how allopathic medicine didn’t work, or was financially out of reach. Speak to the children whose lives were turned around with cannabis, healing from cancer, severe epilepsy, Crohns, and any number of other illnesses. Speak to the adults who experienced the same. Hear us.

I’m lucky. Cannabis has been legal medically in Oregon since 1998, and full legalization happened here a year ago. There will be bumps along the way as the new law unfolds, but at least we’re finally on the board. For candidates to be relevant, they need to talk about cannabis. And don’t just talk around the subject, get the facts, and then educate the people. They have a perfect opportunity to begin the discussion our nation needs to have. A new direction could be set. A new conversation could be had. One that we will all benefit from. And a conversation like that just might get one of them elected.

Yes, cannabis users vote. We hold down jobs, support our families, attend and graduate from college. We’re not criminals. We’re voters. Please remember that.

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Protect Veterans by Funding the VA

It’s simple really. Fund the Veteran’s Administration so that they can hire more staff. More staff means more veterans will be seen. My husband received a letter recently from the Department of Defense saying that he could sign up for outside care if he wanted to do so. He already has that option given his disability rating, and he’s well aware of the compromise he makes if he uses it.

You see, private physicians don’t want to accept the payment amounts approved by the Veteran’s Administration. This is true for dental care as well. Physicians are not permitted to charge the difference between the amount billed and the amount authorized. If the facility submits a request for treatment and it’s approved, they must, by law, accept that amount as payment in full for services rendered. He was referred one time to a local eye doctor who didn’t understand the law and insisted that we would be billed for the balance. I told them we wouldn’t be scheduling an appointment with them. We don’t do business with criminals.

Dental offices are a nightmare as well. Trying to find anyone locally to take care of my husband is impossible. The one dental office we did find actually has a good dentist but an office manager who probably needs to find employment elsewhere. She’s offended us more times than Carter has pills or whatever that expression is. So the only option he has is to continue going there and put up with her nonsense, or to go to the VA hospital in Portland. But getting an appointment with them is ridiculously difficult. They’re really nice people and they do the best that they can, but funding them properly is critical.

We were at our local VA clinic the other day to have my husband’s knee looked at. It had been swollen for several weeks and although comfrey root compresses and a long Reiki treatment did help and brought the swelling to half its size, he decided to go see his regular doctor. Surprisingly enough, he was seen the following day. But no xray because they don’t have a machine. And going over to the hospital or to the radiology clinic down the street would have been a waste of time because evidently funding is gone and no one is getting paid. Vets who really need an xray are forced to either pay out of pocket or drive the 150 miles to the VA Hospital in Portland. But as Lindsay Graham says, it’s not the Republicans’ fault.

I suppose we’re going to blame President Obama again, or Hillary Clinton for the debacle at the VA. Never mind that it was Bush who sent everyone to war. I understood going into Afghanistan. That made sense, but Iraq? At some point the GOP is going to have to own this one and stop talking about how Bush kept us safe. The halls of every VA clinic and hospital are filled with the consequence of the decisions that man made, so stand a man..accept responsibilty for the situation we have now and tell your cronies to shut up, particularly Mo Brooks. Rep. Mo Brooks, a Republican from Alabama, wants to apparently have Hillary impeached upon taking the oath of office. Goddess help her, she’s not even President yet and the natives are already trying to destroy her. Nice to know at least this guy believes she will be our next President. Bet the rest of them think so too.

Our veterans aren’t guinea pigs to test whether or not our democracy works. Fund the damn VA. Give them anything they need. Take care of my husband and his fellow veterans. They were there for us in our hour of need. Have some integrity and stop abandoning them in their’s.